I know you partially know this but I’m an incredibly shy person. I stutter and mutter words in important moments, whether it’s exchanging important key information in meetings, or the opening up of oneself to someone I want. I’m a quiet person hoping to build my confidence, to never fear about talking honestly without a single imbalance in speech. I wish you could know the perfection I see in you, but I’m still on my pathway of openness. I’m slowly trying to open up a book that’s never been opened, this constant fear of tearing a piece of thin paper becomes overwhelming to me that I retreat, closing up the book. I am trying, and I honestly believe I’ll get there, whether it takes me years of muttering riddles of self deprecation jokes.